Hello again my wayward blog, it’s been a while once again. The past two weeks have been a blur, and they’re nothing compared to what the next week has in store for me.

I have bought my prom dress, been accepted to a total of 4 schools, confirmed that I will be leaving Florida for college, spent time with good company, lost friends, and barely slept. Once upon a time, my lack of sleep would have been disastrous for myself and all those around me; now, although I still get more grumpy than usual, it doesn’t leave me totally defenseless anymore.

I had a lot I wanted to write about but now that I’ve sat down to, everything has slipped from my mind.

I went home today. I was happy. I am happy.

I’ve been left feeling as though everything in my life is simultaneously falling apart and coming together. I’m tired more often than I had been, and I attribute that to the monstrous emotional strain I’ve been enduring. For the first time since the summer, I admitted to needing help. It’s a big step for me.

Talking to Ex-Boyfriend (I need a new nickname for him) again has reintroduced me to the inner peace I had missed for so long. I’m okay and functional without him, but there’s no sense in pretending that I’m not better with him. His leaving to LA is also much more bearable than it ever could have been otherwise.

Competition is coming up really quick and I am growing more nervous with each passing day.


I had a lot to say but now I have nothing. Will return with an update if I remember later.